Physicality

Unrealistic attempt to change my dimensions
the form of my thighs and chest
the radiance in my smile and eyes
vividly imagining a physical transformation to match the one that feeds your preference
what would be left of ME if all of ME I altered
I'd wear a mask for just a chance to show you the brilliance of my essence.
my eternal capacity to love
my heart, soul, and passion is all that truly matters
in the end her beauty dies…will her love be first or after?
©Elizabeth Zsamboki

Frozen

Frozen in one particular moment in time
paralyzed
motionless
eyelashes glued to the tops of my cheeks
blind
sightless
visionless
unfocused on what's moving dashing forward
my feet are planted in grass
only in this very particular moment in time seems greener
the moon is smiling in my eyes
my arms are warm as my teeth chatter
as though competing with the pounding of my heart
my hand is gripping leaving room for interlacing fingers
that are no longer there…
my breath paused at an inhale, holding the cool crisp October air
as if competing with the beat of my heart
at the end of this one particular moment in time…has stopped.
©Elizabeth Zsamboki

vigor

I want to be the healer of your shattered heart
hand it over, place it in the palms of my hands that will not part.
allow me to put it back together with my gentle touch
glue it with my laughter, tenderness, and endless ability to clutch
I crave to rupture your lips of silence and inhale the pain from every tragic lesion
fill my lungs until they lead me to the dreadful reasons
Do not fear my explosive passion or constant need to make you feel alive.
DROWN! your frightful need for help to stay afloat, move, and survive
The habitualness of where you dwell is not a place to sleep, be, or need.
Take my hand and let me lead
guide you to a place where, the sun is warm, the moon is smiling, and the stars are bright.
I want to be the strength behind your fight.
©Elizabeth Zsamboki

all the pretty horses

Have all the horses turned dark or developed spots of black
during my sleep of seven years
the world has flipped so drastic
a red rose on the first date no longer grows
a pack of Trojans tramples in its garden
a first kiss is meshed together with a monthly scare of skip.
© Elizabeth Zsamboki

Some Time Ago

Your words retraced the scratch you carved on my heart…some time ago
Revealing my unfortunate job of stitching the gash you loved repeating… some time ago
I felt the sting from the wound underneath my shirt
Believing it had healed into a scratch…some time ago
your voice, your face, your touch picked at the scab that developed…some time ago
I felt the burn from the abrasion underneath my shirt
Blood flowing as old memories, feelings, and fears
Draining my strength to cover your mouth and not allow them to replay.
recur the pain that left me crying on the floor in a pool of my own pain…some time ago
realization has submerged from underneath the blur of my tears…seconds ago
resurrecting a truth I'd buried, masked, lost within the stitching…some time ago
revealing self inflictions for tempting you to repeat
bittersweet candor glistened in the air.
I filled my lungs as though depriving them of breath ever since…some time ago.
the power to stop replaying, retracing, and holding, exploded through my fingertips
Finally…allowing me…after some time …to let go as I did…some time ago.
© Elizabeth Zsamboki